Sept. 7 The first time Mike Morse tested positive, he was in the White Sox' farm system, in May 2004.
"I told them the truth," Morse said Wednesday afternoon. "I didn't tell them that it was a mistake or it was a supplement or that I didn't know how it got in my body. I told them I took steroids. I told them I made a mistake, that the test was correct. And I was violated."
The Mariners rookie was suspended Wednesday -- for that same mistake -- for the third time.
"This is really an incredible thing, and I was embarrassed and ashamed," Morse said. "But how many times do I have to pay for this? But at least this is over. I've been living with this nightmare since my hearing [July 19 in Toronto], waiting for a decision."
Arbitrator Sam Das backed every aspect of Morse's story. In his decision, he said there were no performance-enhancing effects gained from the low level of steroids found in his blood in early May. Das acknowledged that Morse was being punished for the same offense three times, but noted that, because there is no correlation between the minor- and major-league tests, the Players Association considers the player to have a blank slate when he is put on a major-league roster.
"People are forever going to think that the only reason I got to the big leagues was because I took steroids," said the 23-year-old Morse, who is hitting .287 and had a huge hit in the Mariners' 3-2 win Tuesday night -- just hours after breaking down in tears in the clubhouse when informed of MLB's impending announcement. "I'm in the majors despite the steroids, but who believes it?"
The arbitrator believed him, but would not overturn MLB's decision, which offers up a positive test to Congress.
Morse was 21 years old and had a severely torn thigh muscle at the end of the 2003 season.
"I really thought my career could be over," he said. "I was trying to rehab, but it wasn't going well [in fact, it still isn't completely healed]. So I tried to speed it up."
In November and December of 2003, Morse took Deca. Then he found he was getting too big, and tried Winstrol.
"I quickly found that I made a serious mistake," Morse said. "But I paid the price."
He tested positive in May 2004. A month later, he was traded to Seattle in the Freddy Garcia deal. He told the Mariners that he had tested positive, that he'd taken nothing since January, but he was tested again in July -- and tested positive again. The test showed a noticeable decline in the steroids, confirming his assertion. But the Players Association cannot deal with minor-league cases, and Morse -- then playing for Double-A San Antonio -- was suspended again.
"This winter, I hired a nutritionist because I wanted to make sure that I didn't put anything in my body that could test positive," Morse said.
However, when he was tested this May, there was a minor residue from the steroids he said he last took 14 months earlier, a claim that doctors in the arbitration hearing said could be true.
"The arbitrator even said that there is little doubt that because there was so little left -- .2 above the level -- that he accepted my story as the truth," Morse said. "But they didn't care that I'd been punished twice before. Right now, everything is completely out of my body."
But Mike Morse is out for 10 days.
Because of the unusual nature of the case, Morse's positive test went to the arbitrator. It was heard in Toronto after the All-Star break.
"That was the worst series of my career," Morse said. "I think I made five errors. But I've been living with this ever since, not sleeping, worried about the result. Now this."
Morse said manager Mike Hargrove has known about his dilemma, and according to Morse, he's "been really supportive. I didn't think I'd be in the lineup [Tuesday] night, but he put me in there. Maybe that was the best thing."
He played left field, and almost caught on fire when he slid into a heater in the Oakland bullpen trying to make a catch. He had two hits, including a double, scored a run and had an RBI.
"Playing," he said, "took my mind off this nightmare."
There is no question that baseball needs a stronger steroids testing system. But that doesn't mean that it should have a system that suspends human rights and fairness. That Morse could be suspended three times for the same mistake is unfair. Because minor-league players have no union protection, the lack of coordination between the minor and major leagues raises the specter of potential abuse by the commissioner's office. Also, the notion that everyone who enters the Players Association has a clean slate means that a player could test positive five times in the NFL, switch sports and have no record.
The Morse case is a reminder that steroids can be a complex area, and that while multimillion-dollar players can afford masking agents to escape tests not capable of detecting designer drugs, a minor leaguer -- scared that his career could be over -- can be in violation three times for the same mistake.
Major League Baseball knew all this. But because offenders are run up the flagpole and held out in the square of public opinion as an offering to Congress, a Mike Morse can be a three-time loser for a one-time offense.
"I never tried to claim that there was a mistake [in the testing]; I tried to be honest," he said.
RynMan wrote:I may get crucified in here for saying, but:
1. I believe him. 2. I believe he learned his lesson. 3. I feel sorry for him.
I agree 100% with RynMan.
I also read somewhere that the steroid test currently in place will give a false positive somewhere around 5% of the time. I hope the tests aren't that bad, and they have systems in place to try to rectify this if true, but who really knows besides Bud and his cronies?
If this guy was taking stuff 2 years ago, and still testing positive NOW, then what of all these guys that are suspected to of, and/or already admitted to.
Giambi? Shouldn't he still have levels of steriods in his system?
What of all the players that under the gun for this?
Bonds admitted to applying creams to his stomach in '03??
I really shouldn't name names.........
What was the positive test level last year that started this?
7% of major leaguers?
If this guy is comming up positive from abuse in 03, then at least 7% of baseball players should of come up positive this year from the leftovers of the 04 cycles?
Im not saying this guy is guilty..... I feel for him and I admire his honesty on the matter. In a way i think he should be happy (assuming he is guilty) that there was a seperation between minor league offense and major league offenses.... because he would be in some serious trouble if he didn't have a "clean slate" on this offense @ the major league level.
I believe him too. But the problem is that once he tests positive there is a gray area as long as he has traces in his system. I’m sure the MLB does not want to get into an argument in regards to adjusting for players systems and drug history (that may not entirely be disclosed by players). Unless there is a way (via science)to proove without doubt that they are not using the initial positve as a mask for other steroid use I say keep suspending them (barring false positives). It will be more of a deterrent in the future but screws over the current/recent (steroid using) players.
There are soo many variables in any steroid argument that nobody can account for. For this reason I really don't give a damn about the whole topic. If a guy gets caught taking a banned substance, shame on him. He cheated. He loses alot of respect from me. That's it.
I have a few problems with this story.
First off, it is my understanding that steroids do not stay in your system for 2 years, but that is beside the point ..
This is what pisses me off ...
In his decision, he said there were no performance-enhancing effects gained from the low level of steroids found in his blood in early May.
They found this in his blood in early May, and he is just now being suspended on September 7?
That means that there could be players on the field, playing in games with playoff implications that were on steroids, and we would never know until the season ended. I mean some of these tests were done in June and July, and with the 4-month turnaround on testing results, what difference would it make if Sheffield comes up positive, and has to serve a suspension next April. This is an utter joke.
And what are we to make of Alex Sanchez being tossed under the bus in April? why didn't he have a four-month turnaround ...
Das acknowledged that Morse was being punished for the same offense three times, but noted that, because there is no correlation between the minor- and major-league tests, the Players Association considers the player to have a blank slate when he is put on a major-league roster.
WOW! .. I knew this already, but it still pisses me off. How in the hell can you have a clean slate once you make the show? I understand that Minor league players are not part of the collective bargaining agreement, but this is nuts ...
Now I don't know what to make of Mike Morse, maybe he is telling the truth, and I would be willing to give him the benefit of doubt. But I do know you can't postpone the results 4 months for some players, and immediately release the names of others. And I do know that the testing should carry over, since the players are still in the employ of baseball ..
Donald Fehr is going to drive a huge truck through these grey areas when it comes time to negotiate again, and I fear that the testing will be watered down even more.
No offense to Morse, but I hope that's not the "big name player" MLB was hinting at a month ago.
As to Morse, not sure what to make of it, or him. I want to believe him, and his story does sound reasonable. However, I didn't think steroids stayed in the system that long, but if that's the case, this whole thing just got even more complicated.
Yes doctor, I am sick. Sick of those who are spineless. Sick of those who feel self-entitled. Sick of those who are hypocrites. Yes doctor, an army is forming. Yes doctor, there will be a war. Yes doctor, there will be blood.....